Dearest adelaide
Your write so much more elegantly than me, and that I appreciate.. My anger shows every time I am on this topic (can you tell ;)
I am 48.. not taking any drugs, but had my 5 year bought with their effects before my abuse and after.. I am knowledgeable about so much and realized it was never me (finally). I believed what was told to me by those whom proclaim to be there for us. It was after gaining spiritual insight and many years of learning so many truths (the true nature of our establishments) that I finally understood it was never me.. I was that typical kid whom just happened to have an extraordinary high IQ that lived in a world where my upbringing and extended knowledge from the start was my downfall.. For years I knew was different and was beginning to believe I was "inferior" when it all donned on me one day. I was not inferior, I was highly knowledgeable and simply was not complacent. I needed to explain to people whom had slower minds (or simply the brain washed masses) what was right from wrong. Unfortunately this lead to me appearing "crazy" as the "normal" person is incapable of extensive knowledge or insight (the mind works that way by design and this is common knowledge amongst many whom choose to manipulate others for their gain), so I must be a little crazy and a slow learner. Well the exact opposite was the truth and it took 40 years to finally appreciate my mind and accept the fact that the masse have it all wrong (by design, through corporate greed, corrupt government, etc..). I had so much figured out at an early age and expressed this fully.
My first memory was at my Catholic church at age 6 (enough said ;)).. But the blame was placed upon me so the story goes. I knew the truth and that's all that matters. Back then and up until age 40 knowing the truth was not enough, I also took it upon myself to angrily try and get others to connect the dots of life. Today I see how foolish that is and am blessed with the knowledge of my GREAT mind, body and soul.
The story goes..
I woke up in a hotel room several hundred miles from home (during the stopper these drugs create) and was instantly presented a TV program aired on CT public TV. I would have never seen this if I was not there at that time in a drug hazed state that got me there.. The amazing thing was this program was eloquently presented by a gentleman whom had taken a shotgun and blew his mouth and nose off in an attempt to end the misery that he was living (after he had one of my familiar drugged hazed jaunts..) He had taken a shot gun and tried to blow his head off and lived to talk about it through a hole where his mouth and nose once had been, not to mention the disfigured back of his head where the shotgun bullets exited.. I got to tell you, I cried like a baby. Here was where I was headed (without knowing it) and for the first time I heard the words from this "angel" (at least to me)..
Anyway he was going into great detail for about an hour and I cried the whole time.. He especially discussed the true nature of these drugs (he used the words crystal methane as he was careful not to tread on the doctor whom spoke next), and the effects they have on you. This from a man whom had his whole life been like me and simply gave in to them until the end.. Fortunately his attempted end, was a miracle and put the last piece of the puzzle together for me..
His talk was before some government medical crime board trying to crack down on this garbage in their community, so people could see the true effects and how it must be stopped at all cost.. You see the addiction rate for this stuff is said to be higher than anything in history (way more addictive than heroin, cocaine, etc.), I believe they said just over 90%, and this gentleman wanted to help others see where it truly does lead you to. He was correct on so may levels that my mind exploded. I had an addiction problem that was engineered for that purpose, period. I always thought not me, never. I'm above all that. But science and facts along with my own research has shown me the massive corruption behind the explosion of this drug. Without going on for ever, as you see I could ;)... The punch line that actually woke me up was the following.
After this man spoke and changed the world and my life. A medical doctor with some high degrees representing our "children's future" whom was highly regarded and on the boards in many medical circles, got the only standing ovation that day (for saving our children and his life's work). You see he explained in great scientific and medical detail that how ADHD drugs and crystal meth, while identical, are to be excluded from any crime bill or further review so our children whom truly needed the help could get..
I almost tossed the TV out the window, but settled for kicking it instead :)..
I had the last piece of bullshit for my life's puzzle and saw exactly how this manipulation works.. This doctor cared only for power and greed. He heard nothing of what this fine man said nor looked at ay facts other than those he is paid dearly to manipulate ( that was more the reason his true reason to be there, to carefully explain how this drug crazed half dead man does not fully understand science so please think of our "children's future")
Anyway I have so much more info and insight I could go on for ever. So please ask me anything as I am delighted to talk about facts and truth, through the road of discovery that my life has been.